Monday, June 21, 2010


I've mentioned this before, but as the time draws nearer, I tend to think more and more about the fact that in a perfect world, I'd be at the end of my third trimester...heck, I might have even had the baby by now.

I'd be nesting and crazy and complaining about my cankles (oh wait, I do that now.....)

But, alas, no. The baby is gone and I'm still not pregnant. I mean, yeah, I could be right now, but I won't know for sure until at least the end of this week, and I just have a feeling that I'm not.

That just really REALLY sucks. And life is so unfair. And sometimes I'm so, so, so angry.

But as we all know, bad things happen to good people. And losses happen every day, as terrible as that is. Sometimes quickly, and sometimes after long, hard, fights.

I hope that I someday have the strength and grace to handle our loss the way that Megan and Brent are handling theirs. And as my friend Ali so gracefully put it on her blog, "Heaven gained an angel and his name is Cohen." Please pray for Megan and Brent and their family.

And I'm not trying to be selfish here, but throw a little prayer in for me, too.


  1. Life isn't fair - it's just not. I wish I had a reason or a solution but I don't. I just keep struggling and trying and growing stronger & wiser with each go. You are too - and one day you'll be rewarded with a child in one form or another. You were meant to be a mom and you will be one...someday. :)

  2. I'm sorry. It's not fair. Thinking of you, and hoping for a BFP in a few days.

  3. Oh FG, I know. I mean, I don't know but I do know. Make sense? Haha. I adore you and know that you will be blessed with a baby. I don't know when, but I have a feeling it'll happen to you and the G (yes, the G).


  4. It's never selfish to ask for prayers about stuff like that! I'll be thinking of you :-)

  5. Dear, I hope you are very wrong about the state of your ute right now. But regardless, I'm thinking of you as our due dates draw closer. It's not fair, it hurts so much, and we would give anything to have life be otherwise. But I know that we can find blessings even in this.