Thursday, November 4, 2010


I'm having a really bad day today.


I just feel like no matter what I do, we still are in the same position as we were a year ago...but oh wait, that's not true, because a year ago today I was still pregnant.

I'm just feeling really alone and really sorry for myself today.  As a matter of fact, I don't even know why I'm bothering to blog anymore.  All it seems to be is negativity. 

I think I may just step away until I get my act together.  I hate raining on everyone else's parade.

To top it all off, I have to go to the funeral home tonight because a good friend of mine that I worked with in Canada lost her husband to cancer.  After 50 years together.  That is going to be tough.

When will happy things start happening?

I'll see you when I see you.


  1. *hugs* I know you're frustrated and you have every right to be! Sometimes we need to wallow in our own self pity because it just feels "good". BUT you are seeing a doctor who seems to be taking great steps forward and hopefully within a few cycles you'll not only have answers, you'll hopefully have a pregnancy we'll all be celebrating.

    I'm sorry to hear about your friends husband, that's horrible.

    You know I'm here if you ever want to talk! :)

  2. Hey girl. Hang in there. Thinking of you and praying for good things. <3

  3. Sending love your way. This is so hard, we all have days like this. Hang in there.

  4. I was in a really, really dark place that sounds a lot like yours at the end of the summer and had to step back from reading and writing blogs. I just felt so negative and miserable and hated everything about my situation.

    Now, after starting treatment with a doctor I trust, I feel infinitely better. I hope it is the same for you.

  5. I'm so sorry, Gidget. I was in a very dark place in September. It will get better. I hope that starting treatments will help you -- both feel better and get pregnant soon!

  6. If it's any consolation, we wouldn't be reading if you were raining on any parades. If stepping away helps, by all means, do it. If you need to write to the abyss, you have readers out here who care and hope with you every month. So if you need to vent, this is the place to do it. I hope you feel better soon.