Did we miss it?

So we developed the game plan at the end of last cycle with hopes that by making our extracurriculars less frequent, we'd have better swimmer quality.  Sounds good, right? 

We refrained from relating maritally for 5 days, which is atypical for us. We caved on Saturday morning (CD 15), not only from temptation, but also because I was feeling some cramping/back pain and thought maybe it was a bit of ovulation pain.  Our original plan was to wait until Sunday and then go every other day until the spike.

Last night, I slept horribly.  Like, so horribly that I only got 4 hours' sleep.  When I temped this morning, my temp was up enough that I got crosshairs.  On CD 14.  Which means that technically, we missed it.  I'm just hoping that FF will move my O day a couple days this cycle (just like it has in the 2 previous cycles).  The high temp could be because I didn't get any restful sleep.  Yeah, that's it.  :)  That's what I'm telling myself, anyway.  Time will tell.

I had a rough weekend sentimentally.  I reverted back to almost crying every time I saw a pregnant woman out and about, which I haven't done for months.  I think it's because I saw a post from this blog and remembered that her due date is 7 days before what my due date would have been. Seeing her belly pics and picturing myself at that point in a pregnancy really made my heart hurt. If things would have worked out, I'd be almost to my third trimester.....maybe I'd even be in my third trimester, I'm not sure.  Bah.  I have to quit thinking like that.

So....here's to a BFP this cycle (and hoping that my O day gets moved!)

Sad.

SIL just texted me from the doctor's office...she did indeed have another miscarriage. My heart is absolutely breaking for her. Two in a row has got to be hard to handle, because I was devastated by one. She's a very, VERY strong person, but I think it's going to be hard, because she told the entire immediate family and she and my BIL had just told their 4 year old twins the night before she miscarried. I'm so sad. It just brings back so many emotions and I just ache for her. She had some cysts removed after the last MC, so she was supposed to be all clear...I wonder if there was a "cause" this time, or if it was just a fluke like mine...either way, it SUCKS.

Please keep her in your prayers for a while longer, if you don't mind.

Waking temperature yesterday: 97.1
Waking temperature today:  96.4
I thought it was supposed to go up! 
Oh wait, I'm supposed to be relaxing.
*Deep breath**

Another reason I'm not particularly relaxed about all of this is from a series of a events that transpired yesterday....on Facebook, of all places.  Facebook is the devil, I've decided, but I can't seem to stay away from it.  I posted on my status that I am giving up alcohol for Lent.  I am doing this not only because I hope to become pregnant, but also because--um, hello---my pants are getting more snug by the day. 

Anywhoodle, I digress.  Upon posting that status, one friend commented, "Yeah, right....nice excuse." (Implying that I'm pregnant).  Not ten minutes after that, I get a private message from this friend's sister saying something like, "Ok, everyone bugged me, so now I'm going to bug you.  I think that no alcohol is the perfect excuse for a baby bump to start growing!"  These two sisters were like sisters to me growing up--our parents are best friends, but my parents didn't tell anyone (not even my aunt or grandparents) about my MC.  So I politely wrote one big long message explaining everything and I sent it to both of them.  I mean, yeah, they're like family, but it still doesn't make it any easier to have to keep telling people over and over and over.  I guess I wouldn't have had to tell them, but I felt like I should.  Ugh.  I just makes stuff raw all over again.  Not for as long of a time period, but it definitely takes me right back there every time I talk about it in detail like that.

I just keep looking forward to the day that I can give them GOOD news.