The stair-step effect

Ok, so FF still says that O day was day 14....but if you'll notice, my crosshairs are dotted, which they say is because the CM and the temperatures aren't coinciding.  I am totally mystified by the fact that I've had the same temperature for 2 days in a row 3 times in a row.  And this is the 4th time this cycle that I've had the exact same temp for 2 consecutive days.  My chart looks like a staircase! That is so weird!  Grouper and I did the deed in the early morning of day 15 (based on me listening to the signs my body was giving me) and the late night of day 16, and we're planning to do it again tonight.  I, by the way, hate having to "schedule" sex....I'm so over all of that.

Anyway, I checked the chart gallery on FF and I found only one chart that is like mine that resulted in pregnancy.  I would lie if I said that my hopes aren't majorly dashed, but I am keeping my fingers crossed that I have a temp spike tomorrow and that my crosshairs move and become a solid line.  :)

Did we miss it?

So we developed the game plan at the end of last cycle with hopes that by making our extracurriculars less frequent, we'd have better swimmer quality.  Sounds good, right? 

We refrained from relating maritally for 5 days, which is atypical for us. We caved on Saturday morning (CD 15), not only from temptation, but also because I was feeling some cramping/back pain and thought maybe it was a bit of ovulation pain.  Our original plan was to wait until Sunday and then go every other day until the spike.

Last night, I slept horribly.  Like, so horribly that I only got 4 hours' sleep.  When I temped this morning, my temp was up enough that I got crosshairs.  On CD 14.  Which means that technically, we missed it.  I'm just hoping that FF will move my O day a couple days this cycle (just like it has in the 2 previous cycles).  The high temp could be because I didn't get any restful sleep.  Yeah, that's it.  :)  That's what I'm telling myself, anyway.  Time will tell.

I had a rough weekend sentimentally.  I reverted back to almost crying every time I saw a pregnant woman out and about, which I haven't done for months.  I think it's because I saw a post from this blog and remembered that her due date is 7 days before what my due date would have been. Seeing her belly pics and picturing myself at that point in a pregnancy really made my heart hurt. If things would have worked out, I'd be almost to my third trimester.....maybe I'd even be in my third trimester, I'm not sure.  Bah.  I have to quit thinking like that.

So....here's to a BFP this cycle (and hoping that my O day gets moved!)

Chart Update

My chart is wonky AGAIN this month.

At first, it was looking good.  After the ewcm encounter that I took advantage of a week and a half ago, I was feeling pretty good about everything.  FF promptly predicted that I had ovulated on CD 14, which corresponded perfectly with my CM and how I was feeling. 

Hah.  No such luck.  I put my temp in a couple days ago, and it moved my ovulation day to CD 18.  FOUR DAYS past what I originally thought and what FF originally marked.  Here's what the chart looks like now.  Take note of what CD 14 looked like as well.  That was the original O day.

My Ovulation Chart

Has anyone else had FF move their ovulation day?  What effect did it have on the outcome of your chart?

I'm just so frustrated.  I am finding it difficult to figure out what's going on with my body when FF has changed my ovulation day both months I've been using it.  Last month, it was only a discrepancy of two days.  This month, it's four days.  Today, I would be 8 dpo based on the original chart.  Now, I'm 4 dpo.  I don't really feel any different....no major symptoms going on, so is that because I'm not pregnant or because it's too early?  I'm also worried that my temps could be messed up this month because I've slept in my bed, at my in-laws', and in 4 different hotel rooms this week alone, and obviously the temperature and sleeping conditions are going to be different in each place.  I've also been having a few beers here and there, which can influence temps.

Being on vacation this week has been a really nice distraction, but the closer I get to home, the more pressure I'm starting to feel.  I'm going to see my SIL on Saturday...we're going to a Taylor Swift concert together.  It'll be the first time I've seen her since she told me about her BFP.  I'm sure that will be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster....I'm just hoping and praying that I don't make a fool of myself or show my disappointment that I'm not pregnant/jealousy that she is pregnant blatantly on my face.

More to come once I'm back home.

Grr.



 

FFluctuation

My Chart

So I put in my temp this morning, and I get a message saying that due to temperature fluctuations, FF has now detected that I ovulated on Thursday, not Tuesday, as it had originally detected. I'm still not sure that it wasn't a thermometer fluke. I take my temperature at the same time and in the same manner every day, but I don't know...

So now, according to FF, I am technically 3dpo instead of 5dpo. And I had such a good feeling about this cycle, too. Now I'm not sure. And of course, as usual during every 2ww, I am noticing every twinge, every cramp, and I'm over-analyzing everything---I'm sure most of it is in my head. Reading some of the early symptoms I found on this site probably aren't helping my cause.

I'm not trying to wish my life away or anything, but seriously, I can't wait for the next week and a bit to be over so that I know one way or the other!