Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Bust.

It didn't work.

And the worst part of it is, I got results from the nurse on Grouper's cultures for the "infection" he supposedly had.  There, of course, was no infection, so we did the half-assed procedure FOR.NO.REASON. 

That just makes me wonder, what if?

I have been a mess for the past couple days.  Even though I thought I didn't have high hopes, it's hard not to when the hcg and Clomid cause symptoms that I never had, even in the short time I was pregnant.

I couldn't help but get my hopes up, and so I was wayyy devastated when my temperature tanked.

I really don't know how long I can emotionally go through this.  It's just so exhausting.

I'm calling the doctor first thing tomorrow to get Cycle #2 started.

Yippee.

5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry, Gidget.
    Being on the rollercoaster is hard. I somehow get my hopes up every time, especially in the first week p.o. (though I should know better by now, one might think) -- and then it all comes crashing down. I've started to do yoga, and it does help me a little to deal better with it, I think. Hang in there.

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  2. I'm sorry, Gidget. This is hard, hard stuff to deal with. I know how you feel about wondering how much you can take. But I'm learning to just go day by day and cycle by cycle. If this one doesn't work out, there's another one set for next month, right? And one day, one of them will work. Hang in there.

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  3. =( I'm so sorry. I won't pretend I can understand. But I'm thinking of you.

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